Just for you

What do u guys imagine all day sitting on your couch? Do u dream about your date?,or about your carrer?, or about the life u will have? Well, we all keep on thinking or maybe sometimes over thinking about our future. We worry about results, compliments or money. We imagine a happy life with a beautiful/ handsome partner. And all the time we imagine ourselves living.

But I often get busy imagining my death. I simply think how beautiful and peaceful my death will be if I die according to my imagination. Taking nearly six months, I imagined a beautiful story for my death.

I have a dream of climbing "The Everest". I believe taking birth in Nepal, one must climb "Everest" once. So, my imagination flows like, I'll be going on "Everest Expedition". It'll take nearly 3 months for me to reach it's summit. Struggling hard with my difficulties like 'asthma', 'fear of slope' etc I'll reach at the top of the world.

Just imagine how beautiful the view will be? I will have the feeling like I am the 'Queen of the World'. I will enjoy the scene for a while and remove my oxygen mask. I will communicate with my partner and tell him that I have reached the summit but I have no desire to leave this place. He may be arguing with me as I haven't paid him. I'll be telling him that he'll get all that he needs but all he needs to do is let me die at the top of the world peacefully . I'll also tell him not to take my corpse away from there. I want my body to be there forever.

And then due to low air pressure, I'll start having difficulty in breathing. During my those last breaths I'll be remembering only my 'love' . And my corpse will be lying there forever. You may think my imagination to be a bit nonsense. Some of you may also think that I am insane but if I die this way the pleasure of death will be so sweet.

Black and white

Life has always been showing me it's different colours. Sometimes I am covered with it's bright light and I smile but most of the time I am covered by it's dark light so I am sad. But every time I think something good is yet to come.

People may think that my life is bed of roses but they are unaware about the path of thorns I am passing through. Life has always kept me into such states when I can't have control over my emotional side. I become emotionally weak and sad.

But life definitely gives u a second chance. It is my belief and I shall continue my journey living my past behind, encountering different people with different past.

War

My country Nepal is in a very crucial state. It's time to draft the new constitution and the country is going on federalism. Due to this I am witnessing a lot of conflict around myself.

It is said that teenage is the stage of our life where it is decided whether we will be good or bad. If we choose right track our life becomes bed of roses and if we are misled we have to walk on the road of thrones. In the same way this is the stage when Nepal's future will be be decided.

As all these things are going around in Nepal, the military groups are too training hard. These days I regularly witness the trainings of army and police on my way to college. Seeing this I often encounter with the feeling of war. I find myself to be Anne Frank and those military groups to be Nazi commanders. The scene is really frightening. And last day I saw those armies painting their faces with black colour as if it was really a battlefield. I literally went back to 1940s world war and just kept thinking what is God really planning to do.